yesterday i turned 24 and had an epiphany, actually it was like breakdown. living in antigua has shown me the effects of Lupus on my body due to the moisture in the air. Rheumatoid arthritis is commonly associated with Lupus and all my life since i've been diagnosed i've had a pretty easy life in terms of living with my lupus. i have a pretty mild case and i never had the face rash, allergy to the sun, or joint pain. as i get older, i start to feel the effects of aging. i can't stay up late anymore , everything i eat affects my weight, and the detierotion of my body. (and i must apologize for my incorrect usage of the words "affect" and "effect", i wasnt a very good student growing up) anyways here in antigua my joints are swollen, most of the time i can function just fine with a bit of discomfort. but then there are days like today where it hurts to turn the doorknob, open cabinets, or even just to type. i can't help to think that i'm only 24 and i have the joint of a 60 year old person. i can't imagine how life with be in the future. my only reaction is the feeling of being cheated of a life that most people live. will i be able to carry my children? will people look at me as weak? will i be a burden on my family?
i watched "An Inconvenient Truth" for the second time today. i dont usually bring this up in conversations with people because i feel its a sensitive subject. not because i'll get into a great debate, but because these types of convos tend to get really serious and dark and kills the mood. but i would like to point out and remind myself that i do believe in global warming and that i need to do my part. at the end of the movie there is a link www.climatecrisis.net there is a pdf that shows 10 things that you could do to contribute. and i dont know any of my friends that cant do at least 8 of these 10 things.
it is time to take a more active part not only in the fight to lower carbon emissions but in terms of my health also. unplugging electronics when i'm not using them, eating veggies, excersising, not using the AC when i dont have to, taking vitamins, using less electricity, carpooling.....*fist in the air*
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