Lonely Memorial Day

One of the better weekends since i've been back from Antigua. I didnt spend it on my couch all alone and i didnt spend it in the hospital. What a relief. My lurve came home from Michigan for 2 days to hang out with me. We spent the weekend just lounging around, leisurely walks in williamsburg, shopping at the cheese shop, and eating alot of good food.



We are rounding the 4 year mark of our relationship, but it seems that we are never together. We have spent at least 1/2 of our relationship apart due to med school. It seems that alot of the time i spend saying "good bye" to him, its quite depressing.



And with that here is one of the most creative, original, and romantic music videos ever. Check it out

http://youtube.com/watch?v=qz7vGW2_5c0

haircut

my life recently has been a wirlwind of doctors, hiding out on the couch, hospital beds, bruised veins, and judge mathis. since the day i've been home from antigua nothing has been going my way. i've been in and out of the hospital for the second time this month. its seems as though my Lupus has gotten the better of me and now i feel as if there is nothing in my life that i can control. so what do i do? i went out yesterday afternoon and chopped my hair off. its stupid but i feel that its the only part of me that i have control over. also its very depressing to see your beautiful hair fall out in clumps.

i've always been told that my lupus was mild and that i'd be fine. i lived life the way i always wanted, all the while with the thought lupus lingering in the back of my mind. never have i imagined that this disease would take me and leave me life crippled. in the last 8 months i have not done anything that i'd normally do. no going out dancing, no going to the gym, no job, no nothing. this is not living life....will this flare ever end?